Alexis Joy: The Archives

texting peeves

2011-12-14T01:33:00.001-07:00

I hate texting. Most of the time I wish it had never been invented. Sometimes is convenient but mostly it annoys me.

Texting minimizes the quality of true communication. Emotion is hard to express through those quickly typed messages.

It absolutely bothers me when I've taken the time to text someone a detailed message to make plans and a short one word response is the reply. Can you imagine that in actual audible conversation? That would be horrible.

It makes me grateful that I won't have to deal with texting for the next 18 months! Hallelujah!

cookies!

2011-12-12T23:32:00.000-07:00

Cranberry Pistachio Cookies from here

Mint Dark Chocolate Cookies from here

Today, Tracer didn't go to daycare. Instead we played and made cookies. He loves to sit in his chair and watch me cook. He's such a cutie boy.

European teeth

2011-12-12T00:00:00.002-07:00

I keep having a recurring dream/nightmare. It involves my teeth pulling off at a European hotel. According to dumb online dream dictionaries it means I'm insecure and creative. How wonderful!

I'm truly one of the most blessed people ever! I mean, can everyone say they have so many amazingly loving friends? I can. Everyone of you have been a great strength to me at one point or another.

Trace and I are hanging out tomorrow and making cookies. He loves sitting in his high chair and watch me mix and measure. He's the light of my life. I love him. We're becoming wonderful friends.

Tomorrow the countdown is in the single digits.

being home

2011-12-04T20:22:00.001-07:00

As you already know, I'm horrible at creating blog posts that have a general theme or stay on topic but I think it might happen this time. I'm not promising anything.

Today, I was thinking about the things I've loved about being home.

I've love watching football with my dad. We mostly watch NFL but if my Cougars he'll help me cheer them on even though he swears he's a Ute fan.

Mom told me that I should give Trace his Christmas present early so we could play with it together. I gave him this Fisher Price train set. It has a horse and a dog. He loves it, but he really doesn't understand how to play with it. He likes to throw the horse and dog. Sometimes he throws the train too. BUT the rare occasion he'll come sit in my lap and I'll make the train go around. He's just the cutest boy. I love him!

Friday, my nephew Austin played high school basketball. They fought hard and won. It was so fun to watch him play! Go Longhorns!

Mom and Dad set up the Christmas stuff yesterday. It makes our house so magical. I wrapped my gifts that have come and I still have Mom and Dad's coming in the mail soon. I love Christmas and wrapping presents. I love it every year when mom brings out her giant stash of presents for me to wrap. I just sit there and wrap and wrap.

16 days!

why we're friends

2011-12-01T22:29:00.001-07:00

Trany versions

I don't know if this is him mocking or improving my stick figure scene I drew on an envelope.

This is why Elder Solomon is one of my best friend in the world.

I've been blessed with so many friends that can have the title of best.

bullets again.

2011-11-27T22:07:00.001-07:00

Dad and Annie have been working in puzzles in the living room for the past couple of weeks. I really hate jigsaw puzzles. My brain can't figure them out. I've been thinking about the kind of puzzles that I do like. I think kids--kiddos with disabilities--are like puzzles to me. I miss searching my brain for ideas to help each student be able to learn. It's like searching for the missing puzzle piece so that student can see the picture and be able to learn. I can't wait to come back and start teaching.

It really bothers me with couples call each other "babe" or "baby". I'm sure your significant other is not an infant child, so don't call them a baby. I don't mind nicknames or pet-names but "babe" is not acceptable.

Most days I have a hard time with passing the time. I don't have much to do. I have way to much time to think. I think way too much. Matthew used to tell me about how hard it was and I would think "suck it up, boy". But I really need to apologize to him. This isn't very fun.

22 days.

I'm hoping to get new glasses soon. I want partial turtle shell rims.

21 thankfuls

2011-11-24T12:03:00.001-07:00

I'm going finish my 21 thing I'm thankful for. I think I'm on #9:

I'm grateful for

#9 Annie! She's my kindred spirit

#10 Lynnzie--if you ever need anything, she'll drop anything to help you

#11 My mom! She is my very best friend in the whole world.

#12 My dad. He's the best dad and he doesn't have to be.

#13 Amy If I ever have to just talk....she's just listens. I love her.

#14 Matthew! My first best friend at BYU.

#15 My Savior, Jesus Christ

#16 The scriptures, especially the Book of Mormon

#17 Neola. it's where my heart belongs

#18 My students! I love them!

#19 My family as a whole and the love that exists in our family.

#20 All of the people who have influenced my life--the teachers, leaders and bishops!

#21 That the Lord feels me qualified to serve Him as a missionary.

I'm grateful for my source of happiness

2011-11-21T22:07:00.001-07:00

I'm grateful to be a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latterday Saints. I know that Jesus is at the head of this church and guides and directs it through his prophet.

It has shown me how to be happy and to find peace when the world is falling around me. It has shown me how I can learn more about my Savior and have a personal relationship with Him.

sunday stuff

2011-11-20T20:34:00.001-07:00

I taught a primary class of 15 eight to ten year old kiddos. The lesson was about how Paul was valiant. It was really fun teaching today.

I came home and had such a delightful nap. Oh, it was was wonderful.

I've been playing with Trace tonight. He's getting quite the personality. He like to say "hi' to everyone. We chase each other across the house. He is my favorite reason for being home. He is such a firecracker and I love him. I'm so grateful for that little boy. He makes life fun!

Cheerful place

2011-11-19T21:34:00.001-07:00

thankful so much

2011-11-15T21:27:00.001-07:00

I'm grateful I got a call from Dallin before he got set apart.

I'm so grateful for that boy. He's shown me how to love people.

He is going to be such a wonderful missionary. West Virginia had better be prepared.

2011-11-15T21:17:00.000-07:00

A wonderful woman forwarded this to me today. It gave me the pick up I needed today.

Weekend summary

2011-11-14T13:01:00.001-07:00

Lately I get these really down times--like really down. This morning started out like that.

Then just like a answer straight from God, I checked my email and had a letter from Elder Kirkham.

I love and miss that kid. His letter gave me that pick up that I needed to get out of my funk this morning.

I don't really like Mondays. It always seems like that's the day I need to go to the temple the most. But it's closed. It's such a blessing to have the temple so close. I can't imagine not having it so close. I hope I'll be able to go while on my mission.

This weekend was stake conference. I went to the Saturday adult session and it was wonderful. Yesterday, I was so sick--SO SICK--and stayed home in my bed.

thankful 4

2011-11-12T23:59:00.001-07:00

Today, I've been thinking about if I had been accepted right out of high school to BYU, how things would be different. I really don't like to think about it.

I now know that I was to meet certain people. And those certain people helped me fall in love with California. Thus preparing me for my mission.

I don't know if that makes sense to anyone else, but it does in my brain.

I started this post with the intentions of doing a "thankful".

Today, I'm thankful for BYU. It's truly the best place for me. I've learned more about myself there than I could ever imagine. I'm excited for the time when I'm done with my mission and back at BYU with my favorite people!

Day 4: I'm thankful for BYU!

2011-11-12T01:31:00.001-07:00

don't judge this post, you know I should be sleeping

2011-11-11T23:51:00.001-07:00

I've been thinking all day that it was Monday. I know it's Friday, but today was the only day I had to work, so my brain said "Yo, it's Monday". I checked my email several times for missionary boy's email. I even checked Matthew's blog TWICE during lunch.

I know it's Friday, now. Tomorrow is Super Saturday in our ward. I'm excited to be crafty. Actually, I'm excited for human contact outside of my family and students. It's getting pretty limited now days.

My countdown is in the 30s. Hallelujah!

I text Dallin so much! It's ridiculous. He's kind of like my twitter account. I pretty much 4-6 times a day. The good thing with texting him is 1) I'm pretty sure he doesn't mind 2) he hardly ever has his phone with him so he doesn't get my constant texting. I have no idea what I'm going to do when he reports on Wednesday for the MTC. Maybe I'll just send him TONS of dearelders. We'll see.

I think the fam might actually be going somewhere for Thanksgiving. Usually we stay home and just have dinner with our immediate family. The past couple of years my sister's boyfriends (who ever they are at the time) usually come over for pie. I kind of like doing that because we have TONS of leftovers. But the idea of going to our extended family's sounds so great! And plus it's my birthday!

I keep telling mom that I'm not going to have a wedding. I'll get married/sealed in the temple but I don't want the wedding with bridesmaids and receptions or flowers and cake. I think it's a waste of time. But she says I have to. I don't even see this happening in the next 3-5 years so no need to worry about it now, just know I'm anti-wedding.

Brother Nelson, Wednesday, commented to me about how great our graduating class is when it comes to missionary work! It's so true! There are so many awesome young men serving missions. I'm so proud of all of them. ALSO, it makes me really happy to think that all of our group of friends that graduated together (Krishia, Karsen, Ryan, Spencer, Tyler, Jake, Justin) have all gone through the temple and are doing great! SO SO HAPPY!

Justin, Lynnzie's boyfriend, and I looked up when the new Sherlock Holmes movie comes out. DECEMBER 16!! In case anyone was wondering. But that means I get to see it before I leave!

Mom wrote when our family's Christmas will be. It's looking like December 17th. We are going to the Dickens Festival on the 16th. I think everyone should look up the Dickens Festival. It's so great! We went last year and we're going again this year. (Meg, I think you'd love it. It's themed after Charles Dickens and Victorian ages!)

I'm so excited to be a missionary! YAY!

Instituting thanks

2011-11-09T21:37:00.001-07:00

I have never really been a fan of the Roosevelt Institute. It always seemed so full of old people, but it is now the highlight of my week. Brother Nelson does such a great job and it's really nice to be around people my age.

Tonight, recently returned missionaries bore their testimony during a part in the less about one thing they learned while on their mission. The two that shared both talked about constantly be looking for miracles and expecting them in your life.

Day 3: I'm thankful for institute and Brother Nelson

Thankful on Day 2

2011-11-06T01:16:00.001-07:00

It was 2 am, 9 minutes ago but since it's daylight saving's day, it's now 1:09 am. I can't sleep. That's kind of a lie. I haven't really tried. I've been watching Sister Wives on Netflix--lame, I know (but is it better than Toddlers and Tiara's? I watched that on Halloween)

I'm behind on posting what I'm thankful for, but I promise by Thanksgiving, I will have posted 21 things I am thankful for.

Tonight, I'm thankful for missionaries. I'm thankful for those that came to our house 10 years ago. I'm thankful for those that are serving today.

I have so many wonderful friend serving missions right now or getting ready to leave. They all are fantastic. I'm amazed at their dedication to the Lord and love of the people. It's contagious. It maxes me even more excited.

Day 2: I'm thankful for missionaries.

21 things I am thankful for

2011-11-01T20:19:00.001-06:00

I turn 21 on Thanksgiving. I thought a list of 21 things I'm am thankful would be a perfect countdown to my birthday.

Day 1:
I am thankful for the Temple and the strength and power found within it's walls.

Today, my dear friend got sealed to her sweetie and her little boy. It was so special to be there with her. It was also the first sealing I've attended. It was so wonderful! I want to go and do some before I leave for proxy!

picky?

2011-11-01T17:54:00.001-06:00

The other day Lynnzie and I were talking about boys. I told her that I am slowly finding myself more attracted to farm type guys--guys that build fences, ride horses, wear cowboy boots. You get the picture? Can I see myself doing those sorts of things? Not really, but hey. It seems pretty attractive.

Anyway, she told me that I am way too picky when it comes to guys. I was sort of taken off guard by this. I have friends that I would qualify as picky, but I don't think I'm anything like them.

I've been thinking about what kind of guy I want. To me its pretty simple:

Living
Honorable priesthood holder who's temple worthy
Nice to others
Has a plan for the future (job wise)
Someone I'm attracted to. (that doesn't mean they have to attractive to anyone else)

That's about it. Does that sound too picky? I don't think so, but Lynnzie does.

what must be done

2011-10-28T23:33:00.002-06:00

Annie and I went to Bottle Hollow tonight for some sunset picture taking in my new mustard yellow cardigan. Walking back to the car, she told me to skip. It turned out pretty ridiculous. After examining the shot, I knew what must be done.

I'm bored, sorry.

2011-10-25T17:37:00.002-06:00

Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
One is usually open while the other is closed

Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
Mom collects them to give to the Ronald McDonald House. So, if I remember I usually do.

Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
Tucked out.
Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
I popped the trunk for Annie to take "Dip" sign that was sitting on the road.

Do you like to use post-it notes?
I'm a teacher. Of course I use post-it notes

Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
I don't have a clue--swarm of bees?

Do you have freckles?
yes

Do you always smile for pictures?
nope

What is your biggest pet peeve?
When kids tip on their chairs

Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
When going up/down steps

Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?
Not really. However that does not mean it has never happened

What size is your bed?
Full

Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
Um....sometimes. I hate the "tough guys wear" pink shirts. They are dumb.

Do you still watch cartoons?
Not really

Whats your least favorite movie?
Anything scary

Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
If I had treasure I'd probably spend it!

What do you drink with dinner?
Water or juice

What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
Honey mustard

What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
The lovey kind

Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
For about a month. Long enough for my mom to buy the books and then I quit because I didn't like the girls or the leaders

When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
Yesterday--to Elder Kirkham

Can you change the oil on a car?
No. But I do get it changed.

Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
No. Verbal and Written warnings--yes.

Ran out of gas?
No

Favorite kind of sandwich?
Chicken salad

Best thing to eat for breakfast?
Waffles with fruit

What is your usual bedtime?
11:30

Are you lazy?
Um, ya.

What is your Chinese astrological sign?
Horse

How many languages can you speak?
1 :(

Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
No

Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
Legos. Hands down.

Are you stubborn?

Do you think musicals are cheesy?
Yes and no. The cheese is part of the greatness!

Is Christmas stressful?
No it's delightful.

Ever eat a pierogi?
No, Katie would all the time though.

Favorite type of fruit pie?
I love pumpkin pie but I don't know if that's a fruit. Definite fruit pie answer: Cherry.

Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
Teacher and chef

Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
Yes. Creepiness

Take a vitamin daily?
Yes.

First concert?
The Fray

Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
Target

Nike or Adidas?
Nike

Cheetos Or Fritos?
Neither

Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Peanuts

Ever take dance lessons?
When I was a wittle girl.

Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
Whatever he loves

Can you curl your tongue?
Yes

Ever won a spelling bee?
No. I got out in the last round on the word "prelude". The stupid lady said "per-lude" so I spelled "perlude". Dumb lady if you had only how to pronounce words I would have stayed in that round!

Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
All the time, especially in church

Who would you like to see in concert?
Mumford and Suns

What was the last concert you saw?
Fun.

Hot tea or cold tea?
Hot herbal tea

Tea or coffee?
Herbal tea <3

Sugar or snickerdoodles?
Sugar

Can you swim well?
Not really

Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
Ya

Are you patient?
When I want to be

Which are better black or green olives?
Black

Can you knit or crochet?
I can kind of crochet. I really want to learn to knit though

Best room for a fireplace?
Bedroom

Do you want to get married?
Yes please

Do you want kids?
Yes

Whats your favorite color?
Navy, grey, green

Do you miss anyone right now?
Yes, oh yes! My missionary boys :D

people

2011-10-24T21:55:00.001-06:00

I went to my old Provo singles ward on Sunday. It was their ward conference.

The stake president talked about really getting to know people. That people have struggles that we aren't always visible from the outside. When we look back on the challenging times in our lives, usually we remember the people that helped us through those challenges.

I've been struggling through some stuff lately. I am so overwhelmed by love my friends and family have shown--for the friend who stops whatever she's doing to listen to me complain.

I truly have been blessed by the Lord. He has sent some remarkable people into my life at the exact time I needed them.

Dear Stalkers

2011-10-23T23:20:00.001-06:00

Dear Stalkers,

I'm sorry that I've been absent but I've had a most fantastic weekend!

I prepared for my mission--in temporal and spiritual ways. I went mission shopping and went to the Salt Lake temple!

I went to the last farewell before I (believe) will be attending before my own.

Dallin. You'll be fantastic!

Love you,

Alexis Joy

Can it be Thursday already?

2011-10-18T21:58:00.000-06:00

This weekend I get to see almost everyone I love that I've met through college. With the exception of a couple that are on missions or just busy. I'm so thrilled.

I'm getting tired of giving so much to some people to only be asked to give more. And more. And more. It takes my time to design and edit things. I still have a life and work a full time job. Sorry things aren't done two days after the session. Geez people.

I love my mom. So much. Tonight we sat and watched Cold Case together. It was splendid. She's a marvelous woman.

Can it be Thursday already?

Dear Lady,

2011-10-13T22:08:00.001-06:00

Dear Lady,

When you asked me if I was going to be speaking Spanish on my mission, and I replied with no, you responded "oh, just English." I know you didn't mean it the way it sounded but when you said it, but Abby Harrison's joke came to my mind....

"English speaking, American are less deserving salvation"

Thanks,
I'm thrilled to be speaking just English really.

not accomplished

2011-10-12T20:19:00.000-06:00

What I wanted to do today:

Teach
Go to the gym
Get a new licence
Go to the temple

What I did instead:

Slept
Threw up
Wrote a letter to Elder Kirkham
Slept
Watched TV shows on my computer
Went and got my prescriptions (not stomach flu related)
Slept

I went to church

2011-10-10T22:30:00.000-06:00

I don't think I posted this news. It's not a secret but I think I just plain forgot and if I already posted it--sorry your going to get it again.

In my home ward, I have a new calling as a Primary Worker. I'm the official Primary substitute until I leave.

Mission skirt

Monday morning email

2011-10-10T15:25:00.000-06:00

"SAC-TOWN betta wacha back! Cuz Miss Dressings coming to dress your spiritual salad!!!!
ok that sounded weird. but hey! I´m weird. The mission can´t change EVERYTHING"

---Elder Kirkham

happiness creators

2011-10-08T20:53:00.002-06:00

I went to the temple today. One of the temple workers asked me if I needed headphone. I said no, turns out I did. The Vernal Temple does one Spanish session a month. That happened to be the session I went to today. It was wonderful, none the less and reminded me I need to write Matthew.
The sunset on the way home was gorgeous.
I came home and my sweet, sweet sister cleaned my room and started washing my laundry. She's such a blessing and I love her.
BYU's Homecoming football game is showing on 3 TVs at my house. I can hear what's going on from every corner of the upstairs.
I now have Auburn hair. I really like it.
Annie walked 22 miles to the temple with the Young Women from our stake! They're all amazing!

showers

2011-10-06T22:07:00.001-06:00

rain showers, snow showers, bridal showers, baby showers

Today I'm not a fan of any of them.

Rain showers: Take 20 kindergartners and 25 first graders to the corn maze when it decides to rain and see if you like rain showers.

Snow showers: See above

Bridal showers: I get their for the bride but they're definitely not for me. I'm not a fan of the sexual innuendos. I think its so wasteful to make dresses out of toilet paper. When I get married I'm going to have a tea party

Baby showers: Who wants to eat baby food? Really? Gross!

fantastic

2011-10-03T22:08:00.002-06:00

This weekend was fantastic.

Friday, I went through the Draper Temple. I was surrounded by many that I love. I am looking forward to going to the Vernal Temple often! That night Annie, her (boy)friend and I stayed down town at a hotel. Our parents were so generous in getting us a hotel room so we wouldn't have to deal with Conference parking and traffic the next morning.

and, no, I didn't take this picture.

Saturday, we lined up in the standby line around 8. We didn't make it into the Morning Session, but after it was over we made our way back to the standby line for the Afternoon Session. We made it into that session! It was great!

Sunday, I stayed in my pajamas, watched conference with the windows open as the rain fell.

pills

2011-09-27T22:38:00.002-06:00

I play a game with myself every night to see how many pills I'll be consuming. The minimum it'll be is 5 and the winning day so far is 14.

Today I went to the gym. I started my couch to 5k training. I'm starting to feel sore. I could have taken a pill to help that, but honestly I want to feel the burn in the morning.

Thanksgiving plans

2011-09-26T21:23:00.002-06:00

I turn 21 on Thanksgiving. I decided that I'm going to something for myself.

I just signed up to run a 5k.

things that bother me

2011-09-26T18:26:00.001-06:00

The other day I went to the pharmacy to pick up one of 7 prescriptions. A lady walks in using a cane and wearing HIGH HEELS!! Really, lady? If it is so difficult for you to walk that you need a cane, you should wear reasonable shoes.

I love BYU. And I love BYU football. I understand commenting during rivalry week about how much you love the U, but that was almost two weeks ago. You don't need to comment about how much you more you like Utah than BYU on my Facebook status about the BYU football game against Central Florida University. (sorry if that offends, but holy Hannah)

In case you've checked out from my blog or your a new reader, I'm a Special Educator (one semester away). I love children that need extra help learning. Most people don't make fun of little kids with disabilities, but they grow up. I love them just as much. It's not cool to mock them. Well, it's not cool mock anyone. Be nice people.

Another thing that bothers me today--my disproporiate body. My bridesmaid's dress for Krishia's wedding came in today. It fits perfectly everywhere except my bust. I have to go a size larger and make the rest of the dress baggy.

I don't know if I've ever posted about my hatred for people touching me--but I absolutely LOATH it. Don't hug me. Don't put your arm around me. Don't scratch my back. I don't like it. there are very few people that I don't mind touching me on a special occasion. Last year, Matthew told me that we were going to work on my problem. He'd make give him a hug everyday before I left. One time he held my hand "for practice" and I told him that was too much.

one day there will be no empty chairs.

2011-09-25T02:13:00.003-06:00

I just want to be a missionary.

I just want to help people realize the happiness that awaits them--

The peace that comes from having a person relationship with a Savior that loves them.

You might have heard the phrase "no empty chairs" before.

I'm praying my heart out that one day, there will be full chairs.

People where those empty chairs are now.

I know that my Heavenly Father always answers prayers.

Not always in our own timing.

Not always in the way we want.

But always.

I know that the Lord will answer my prayer and start filling my chairs, one day.

But until that day, I'm going to be a missionary.

One day there will be no empty chairs.

the immortal fish

2011-09-21T16:55:00.000-06:00

This is Jesus (Hey-sues). He is Annie's large goldfish. She named him. She's also had a smaller gold fish named Mary and a black goldfish named Cane. However, Mary and Cane have passed. Yet, Jesus lives on.

He is almost 2 years old. In our house that's almost unheard of. But after a little wiki-research I learned that goldfish can live to be 15-20 years old (bizarre).

I tell Annie the reason he's still alive because he's named Jesus.

Elder Yazzie's messages

2011-09-20T20:53:00.001-06:00

Elder Mike Yazzie will be leaving the Sacramento Mission the day I arrive! On September 7, he said,

"THE KOOL PART IS THAT I WILL BE WATCHING HER COME INTO THE CHAPEL IN THE MISSION OFFICE RECEIVE HER TRAINER AND GET TRAINED. I WILL SEE HER IM SUPER EXCITED!!! :) :) THEN I WILL LEAVE THE MISSION THE NEXT DAY."

(quoted straight from Elder Yazzie, caps-lock and all)

Today's Message:
P.S. I SAW ALEXIS DRESSEN'S NAME ON THE LIST ON INCOMING MISSIONARIES AT THE MISSION OFFICE. SO EVERYONE KNOWS WHO IS COMING IN HAHA LOL SHE IS GOING TO HAVE THE TIME OF HER LIFE HERE IN SAC. :)

first mission purchases

2011-09-20T20:46:00.002-06:00

Today, I bought:

I'm thinking about buying:

What do you think?

dress

2011-09-18T19:19:00.002-06:00

My dear sister bought me this temple dress as a surprise. I absolutely love it. She is the sweetest thing.

sunday ramblings

2011-09-18T17:47:00.000-06:00

When I walked into Sacrament meeting today the Bishop told me he had something for me. He walked back to his office and brought back a card. He said a sister in the ward wanted to give this to me but remain anonymous Inside was a beautiful card and money. I am so overwhelmed by the generosity of that sweet unknown sister. It just reminds me of the wonderful people in Neola.

Growing up, all through the Young Women's program I was always told, "your goal is the temple" "be temple worthy". Today I got my grown up recommend--not just the tempary use ones for baptisms. I am scheduled to get my endowments out on the 30th of the month in the Draper Temple.

Last night I made a trip to the ER. My back was killing me all day and it progressively got worse. The doctor said hopefully it is a muscle spasm thing/pinched nerve. He gave me some medicine and said if it doesn't help by 3-5 days to go get a MRI to see if I have a slipped disk. It kind of sucks. Every night I play with my nephew, he expects it now. The crumbiest part of this whole back junk is that I can't really do anything with him.

we don't kiss people at school, we sit in chairs.

2011-09-16T17:21:00.001-06:00

I am currently a long-term sub for a SPED aide while she's out for surgery. It's a 6-8 week gig.

This school is not short of silly kids. Every day I have a funny story to share with my parents. I figured I could share with you. Many of my stories come from the kindergartners.

One student asked me why my belly was so big and then proceeded to tell me to stop eating so much because I'll get sick. Thank you kindergartner, duly observed.

On another day a sweet little boy politely asked, "teacher, can I please go throw up". Yes, run! Don't ask! RUN!! He went to the bathroom and came back. Reported that he didn't throw up and continued to drink his Capri Sun. The the kindergarten teacher asked if he was okay and then picked up the garbage can just in time to catch his vomit.

Students: "Miss Dressen why aren't you married?"

Me: "I don't think I'm old enough to be married."

Students: "How old are you?"

Me: "I'm 20."

Students: "No way! You're 40, maybe 30. There's no way you can be 20. You should get a boyfriend"

On a Friday, the little ones spent some extra time outside after recess. On their way back in they played follow the leader. One little boy stopped to gnaw on a tree like a beaver. I guess you've got to get your fiber some how.

Me: Let of my hand.

Student: I'm just trying to kiss your hand.

Me: Don't kiss my hand?

Student: Okay, I'll just kiss your face then.

Me: We don't kiss people at school, we sit in chairs.

bullet point posts

2011-09-15T22:07:00.003-06:00

I'm really good at making bullet point posts so here's another one.

I really love my parents Magic Bullet. I've been blending up tomatoes and adding them to everything. (yes, I'm blogging about an appliance. Get over it)
I think part of me really misses Provo, but I think the actuality of it all is I miss friends and doing crazy things. If my missionary boys were here back I'd be loving Provo. Krishia is really fun to hang out with but she has a job, baby, fiance and a wedding to plan.
I'm ready to start preparing the "stuff" for my mission, but that requires "$". Just waiting for the money to start rolling in.
I've learned that I definitely don't want to work in a really small school like the ones out here---the ones that have 1 class per grade. I need chaos with many kiddos not just 10.
My little sisters constantly seem M.I.A. We live in the same house and hardly see them. I think they appear when I decide to call it a night and make my rounds saying the lovings for the day.
I've had a nasty cold. I'm just trying to get rid of this cough that won't go away.
I am really excited to be in the MTC on Christmas....I hear rumors of Apostles!!
Just realized the other day that my birthday is on Thanksgiving this year. Yay pie with candles!
I get more enjoyment out of brushing my teeth than I think a normal person should. It's weird.
Pintrest. Hello.
I need to read lots of books. Do you have any suggestions. Please?

2011-09-14T21:47:00.001-06:00

small post

2011-09-12T21:22:00.001-06:00

I have a really hard time blogging. Not much in my life is worth reporting. I do the same thing day in and day out--work, hang out at subway, home, make dinner, sleep.........rinse, wash, repeat.

I still have to blog about my mission call, I know. That takes motivation, which is highly lacking right now. I'll get to it I promise.

2011-09-09T21:59:00.001-06:00

Opening the Call

2011-09-01T22:42:00.001-06:00

January

2011-08-30T21:41:00.002-06:00

I remember back in January, I would talk to Matthew. He would tell me of his loneliness and boredom; how he'd lay on his bed and listen to Joanna and Sufjan---and cry.

I think I'm there.

Neola love

2011-08-29T18:51:00.000-06:00

I've been an absentee from the blogger world lately. Honestly, I'd rather spend time hucking bouncy balls down the hall or having screaming matches with my nephew.

I started a new job today. I was planning on taking subbing jobs wherever I could within the district. I had booked 7 out of 30 teaching and was praying that was going to increase. It did. Friday I got a call asking if I'd be a long-term substitute in the Special Ed department at one of the smallest elementary schools in the district--to be the sub for the aid. I said yes and set to finding a sub for the 7 days I had already booked. It's a guaranteed job for the next 30-44 school days. Which is half of the days, I am planning on subbing. It's kind of like job security, that I'll be working at least that much--definitely a prayer answered.

Every day I look out my kitchen window I'm so grateful for the little patch of land we call home in Neola. It's definitely a little slice of heaven slapped onto this earth. (Random trivia of the day: Neola isn't even considered a town my the United States--it's a census designated place)

I'm anxiously waiting for Wednesday. I've been struggling with sleep since I was told that my call was sent. I'm so happy, excited, ready but scared and worried out of my mind. I am ready to know where the Lord wants me and start preparing materially. I'm trying my best to prepare spiritually but I definitely could improve--for sure.

It's coming!!

2011-08-26T17:28:00.001-06:00

"Call Letter Sent - August 26, 2011"

all grown up

2011-08-19T01:41:00.001-06:00

memories explode: day 1

2011-08-15T22:12:00.002-06:00

The pictures on my walls are coming down. The nick-knacks on my shelves are boxed up. This chapter of my life is coming to a close. I didn't think I'd be sad about leaving Provo, but it's starting to hit me.

I have to have everything ready to go by Thursday, when my mom comes to get my boxes. It kind of hurts. BYU has been so beautiful. I've made friends that have changed me forever. Memories explode from everything.

My wand, memories of some of the happiest times I've ever had.
The picture envelope in the top left contains copies of my head shots for my student teaching application Ashley took.

Even this nasty, blue tack has memories.

I'm now listening to Joanna Newsom. I guess I should continue with packing.

Sunday summary

2011-08-14T21:26:00.001-06:00

I finally sold my contract for my apartment complex. Well, it's almost sold. It will be soon! That's a great blessing. I'm ready to move home.

My mission papers are now one their way to Salt Lake City and the Church headquarters. I'm so happy and excited.

I asked my stake president what I need to do now, until my call comes. He said I need to start praying like I've never done before.

Saturday is a party day

2011-08-13T22:42:00.000-06:00

He's the love of my life.

I'm tired of living in Provo and visiting Neola. I'm ready to live in Neola and visit Provo.
I think nights are best spent eating alfredo (or pesto), editing pictures and listening to banjos and according.
Speaking of which I want to learn to play both the accordion and the banjo.
My little sister can plan a very cute party. I'm very impressed and proud of Trace's first birthday party.
Dallin is going to West Virginia on his mission. He's going to live in the Appalachian mountains. Maybe he can baptize some Appalachian folk singers. I know he'll be amazing.
I'm shooting a wedding on Friday. I'm kind of freaking out on the inside.
Guess who's mission papers are getting sent in tomorrow? Guess!?

fulfilling and successful Wednesday.

2011-08-11T00:20:00.000-06:00

Today has been a very fulfilling day.

I took my very last final at BYU for my undergraduate degree, EVER! I got 149/150. I'm quite please with myself.

At 9am, I went to the doctor and she gave me the go ahead for my mission (as long as I take my new prescriptions).

I called my bishop, he told me to stop the doctor from sending the paperwork in the mail and tell them he'd be stopping by to pick them up.

At 12:30, Dallin texted me and said that his call was there. I hoped in my car and drove to his house in Alpine. He said that he was opening at 1pm exactly because his sister had to get to practice. And because it's my luck, I got stuck behind every car that wanted to obey the speed limit. I made it to his house at 1:10. Thankfully, he waited!

Dallin, soon to be known by Elder, is going to West Virginity. I'm so very excited for him. It makes me more anxious for my call to get here. SO ANXIOUS.

My visiting teachers came over for a quick visit and then I met with my bishop to make sure everything is ready to go. I have to call and set up an appointment tomorrow with the stake president.

After I was done there I went and picked up Katie at the airport. It's so good for her to be home.

Today was a very successful Wednesday.

slipping thoughts

2011-08-09T00:11:00.006-06:00

Summer is drawing to a close, yet my break is just started.

I firmly believe people are in your life for a reason. They're in parking lots when you go outside because you needed them, they send a message when you feel alone and they call just when you need to feel loved.

Tomorrow I'm going to visit my grandparents. Nothing compares to a day with them.

I'm going to take lots of pictures of pretty thing tomorrow. I'm going to search for inspiration.

In class we talked about infant euthanasia for baby's with disabilities. A beautiful discussion followed. We talked about how each soul is worth so much and how everyone can progress in one way or another. The spirit was so strong. I think it was stronger than any religion class I've ever been in.

I'm ready for my mission. I'm just so ready. I know I've said it before but waiting is slowly ripping my insides up.

Neola is the most beautiful town ever. The people are the heartbeat that keeps it alive.

Yesterday in church, my Neola church grandma told me to start thinking about a musical number for my farewell. If you have any ideas let me know.

I know it's premature, but speaking of farewells, if any of my friends would like to come out to Neola for it, I'd love it. And it would be wonderful if you let me know so my mom can plan. She really likes to plan.

2011-08-05T03:06:00.001-06:00

2011-08-05T02:21:00.001-06:00

courage like Joseph

2011-08-05T01:57:00.001-06:00

I met with my bishop on Sunday for my final mission interview before my interview with my stake president. My bishop and I talked about Joseph Smith and the first vision. Before Joseph saw Heavenly Father and Jesus, he was overcome by a dark and scary spirit.

We talked about the strength and courage that Joseph had to have as he entered into that grove of trees. My bishop told me I need to have that kind of courage. This time when I'm preparing to get my call and after while I'm waiting to enter the MTC, Satan is going to be very tough on me. Missionary work is one of the greatest and salvation bringing things in the plan. Satan is going to try to stop that.

Today I definitely felt that. The day has been one of the hardest days I've ever had---EVER. I've been relying on the Lord today more than normal. I know I wouldn't have gotten through today without that strength. I'm trying to have the strength and courage that Joseph had to get through this darkness.

President Lebaron, my stake president from home, said at a youth conference I attended a couple years ago that each of us need to have our our sacred grove to get us through hard times. Mine is home, my Neola. I'm so happy I'm moving back.

2011-08-04T02:30:00.001-06:00

Happy Birthday My Little Boy

2011-08-01T20:42:00.001-06:00

My beautiful baby nephew is one. This year has gone by so quickly.

It makes my heart hurt that I he'll grow so much while I'm on my mission.

I love you, Tracer!

Photo credit: Tai Lee Photography

mountains

2011-08-01T18:04:00.006-06:00

"Instead of telling the Lord how big your mountains are,

Tell your mountains how big the Lord is."

2011-07-30T20:30:00.001-06:00

Today reminds me why I'm ready to move home.

yes please.

2011-07-29T22:24:00.002-06:00

I love this.

I don't care if you're a liberal or conservative, it's still great.

blabber

2011-07-29T21:58:00.001-06:00

Tonight, I spontaneously went and got a hair cut. I didn't do anything drastic, just trimmed my ends and cut my bangs. Nothing too abnormal.

But what was abnormal was that the stylist said that I had virgin hair (never been died before hair). I've been dying my hair since the 7th grade. She was surprised when I told her that. Then she said that I have super healthy hair. I'm impressed with myself.

On another note: I got my missionary physical done this morning. I have to get my immunizations faxed on Monday from Tricounty Health and have them check my arm for a TB reaction. They're also doing a full blood panel which isn't normal. The doctor just wanted to double check for somethings. I have some symptoms that I've never thought much of them, but when they're put together they could potential be something. So we're being safe.

Provo is boring now that I'm not teaching or working. I don't have anything to do. I do have one class Mondays and Wednesdays from 4-7, but that's it.

If anyone has suggestions on what I can fill my days with I'll take them.

2011-07-28T00:03:00.001-06:00

no pressure

2011-07-26T19:04:00.000-06:00

I want to serve a mission. That decision is one that I've come up with on my own. I want to go give all I have to help other people come to know and love the gospel like I do.

No one has pressured me into going on a mission. I'm not doing it because someone expects me to. This is my decision, my choice.

I love the person that the gospel allows me to be. I want to share with others the happiness that it has provided me and maybe they can have some of that happiness too.

2011-07-25T23:52:00.002-06:00

“Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising which tempt you to believe that your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires courage.”

--Emerson

not dependent on outcomes

2011-07-25T22:35:00.002-06:00

"My faith is in the lord Jesus Christ

it is not dependent

on outcomes."

Katie, my wonderful roommate posted this as her Facebook status yesterday.

It's exactly what I needed to hear today.
I know that the Lord will provide a way for me.
I just need to trust in that.

venting

2011-07-25T13:33:00.002-06:00

I suggest you stop reading now. I'm going to complain.

Why must the ideal, perfect teaching position for me open up when I decide on one plan?

Really? Please stop playing games with me.

I want to be a 7th/8th grade resource teacher. It's my dream.
The Wasatch School District just posted THAT position now that I've decided to go on a mission.

I still want to be a missionary but I guess today is just a day of frustration.

limbo.....again

2011-07-24T14:01:00.001-06:00

I am constantly changing my plan for what I am going to be doing until I go on my mission. And I've done it again.

I'm trying to sell my contract at the Branbury but I'm not having a lot of luck. I'm going to be moving home and subbing and working at Subway to earn money. I'm going to keep paying for my contract until it sells (hopefully soon) but if not I'll have a place to stay for when I go to Provo to play and I plan on playing often. I think I'm going to be in Provo until at least the middle of September. I don't quite know. I want to finish my mission papers there and possibly get my temple stuff done before I come home.

I love my ward and the opportunies I've had serving in the Relief Society presidency but I feel like I'm slowing them up. I think I'm going to be released soon, which is okay because I'm going on a mission but it still sucks.

I'm just ready to go on my mission. I'm ready to go through the temple. I'm ready to get rolling with things.

2011-07-24T11:48:00.003-06:00

Woah buster

2011-07-22T12:56:00.001-06:00

Yesterday we were playing kickball with a group of 2nd and 3rd graders. I tagged a kid out and he ran toward my directs. "No!" He yelled. His hands lifted up as he got closer and before I know it his hands were on my chest. "Woah! It's okay. You're out." The other two teachers just stood there and laughed at me as I pushed him off of me and covered myself.

Last night I was telling one of my friends about what happened. He told me that on my last day I needed to:
1- Have fun
2- Don't get groped.

Well today, the last day of summer school, 1/2 those things happened. I had a blast and we played lots of games. However, one students hands happened to end up touching my bottom.

Geez.

mini update

2011-07-21T22:56:00.002-06:00

Tomorrow is my last day of summer practicum. It's a bittersweet thing. Our pod has the best students! I've learned so much from then and have grown to love them.

Summer practicum has been pretty intense. I've had 6 weeks of daily lesson writing, data analysis and a super strict mentor teacher. I feel I've neglected many thing including my calling in the Relief Society presidency, but I had to put all of my attention to practicum. I'm ready for things to get rolling and getting my mission call ASAP.

I have my missionary physical next Friday and that's the last thing I have to do. I'm just ready.

Please hurry.

Also, friends come back. Okay? Thanks

2011-07-19T20:46:00.002-06:00

This makes me happy

HP7 Thoughts

2011-07-17T21:16:00.002-06:00

Today at Summer School, some of the other teachers wondered what made Harry Potter worth staying up all night. The answer to me is very simple.

Hogwarts was the place I could escape to. It was the place I found solace when I didn't have any friends. Ron, Harry and Hermoine were the friends that I needed.

I grew up with them. Now, that era is over. That era in my life is over, yet I don't know if I want to move on.

2011-07-16T14:16:00.002-06:00

Erika found. I love.

Explanation to why I haven't blogged

2011-07-12T21:20:00.001-06:00

I'm doing a very intensive summer practicum for Special Education. I spend hours writing lessons (until very recently when I passed off my scripted lesson plans and went to brief lesson plans).

It started out very rough but things are going great. And I'm liking it.

2011-07-07T23:33:00.004-06:00

Do it anyway

2011-07-07T14:12:00.003-06:00

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;

Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true
enemies;

Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;

Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;

Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;

Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;

Give the world the best you’ve got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your God;

It was never between you and them anyway.

--Mother Theresa

I like this

2011-07-07T13:52:00.001-06:00

friends are for eternity too

2011-07-06T23:29:00.000-06:00

Tonight, as I lay in my med, instead of sleeping in my bed, I was thinking about how remarkable friends are. And that is such a great blessing the God gives us the opportunity to choose and make friendships.

About a year ago in one of my very first Fast and Testimony Meetings here at BYU, I distinctly remember Alex Teemsma saying that he believes friends are for eternity too, just like families.

I like to believe that because why else would we be allowed to create and build relationships as friends.

I believe you are my friends for eternity.

Messages from Scotland!

2011-07-04T01:31:00.000-06:00

ELDER REYNOLDS HAD A BAPTISM!!

AND SCOTLAND IS BEAUTIFUL

AND THOSE KIDDOS ARE CUTIES

AND HE'S HALFWAY DONE!

p.s. I miss him.

lips

2011-07-04T01:15:00.000-06:00

Yesterday, I woke up and thought about how much work I needed to do--all the lesson plans I need to write. But I lied in my bed and did nothing for the majority of the day. Until I had thought--Alexis you need some lipstick.

I've never been a lipstick kind of girl. Usually I'm pretty self-conscious of my lips. They're pretty large. But I like them I just don't like to embellish them. However, yesterday that changed.

I went to Nordstrom and bought lipstick and some cute lip gloss to match. It's not too flashy but, I like the way it makes me feel.

P.S. One time when I worked at Stewarts Market, a customer told me I had beautiful movie star lips.

wanna know?

2011-07-04T01:09:00.000-06:00

Do you want to know what makes me happy, like immensely happy?

When this girl texts me and tells me a scripture she likes or one she has a question about.

I love you, hunny bunny. You're making me SO proud!

2011-07-03T13:00:00.001-06:00

I live less than thirty minutes away from you.
And yet you never invite me to anything--family dinners, family parties, nothing.
You ask why I never come and visit, maybe it's because I've never been invited.
I've lived in Provo for over a year now, and you've never come visited.
I see what it means to be your daughter.

dear whole foods

2011-06-26T17:05:00.000-06:00

Dear Whole Foods,

Your Smoked Salmon and Spinach Dip is to die for!

Love,
Alexis Joy

P.S. Please PLEASE PLEASE come to Provo!

best parts of my night

2011-06-26T00:43:00.000-06:00

2011-06-24T22:15:00.002-06:00

anxious and trying to be anxiously engaged.

2011-06-18T21:43:00.000-06:00

A year ago was the first day of the best summer of my life. I met friends that became my BYU FamBam. It's crazy to think how much has changed yet remained the same in this year.

Now as I start my second summer at BYU, I'm anxious to learn what it has to hold. I doubt it'll compare to last year but this year I'm teaching summer school for the Alpine School District Special Education. We've already completed one week and I'm already loving my students. They are so wonderful! Every teaching experience I have definitely reaffirms that I'm meant to be a special education teacher.

I decided that I'm going to submit my papers July 28. It's about a month sooner than I was planning but I feel that's what I need to aim for. We'll actually see if happens. The Lord has a way of informing me of a change in plans last minute. But I know if I trust in Him and His plan for me I'll be the most happy.

This post has no clear direction but it's what's been on my mind this week. Thank you for reading and putting up with my random thoughts. I love you all.

like my mother does

2011-06-15T23:15:00.001-06:00

Today as I was coming home from practicum, this song came on the radio. I pretty much started crying. Yes, I know I cry way too much, but I really love this song.

nothing a game of catch can't solve

2011-06-13T22:48:00.000-06:00

Nothing in MY life is going bad, in fact its going considerably good. However, I tend to take people's problems upon myself and being in the RS presidency I know that people have a lot more problems than I ever realized.

Tonight, I just needed to take my mind off of everything and everyone. So, Katie and I went and played catch. We do this often, but there is no problem too big that a quick toss of the ball can pause in my brain.

It's like there's nothing a game of catch can't solve.

sleeping predicament

2011-06-12T21:32:00.000-06:00

My bed is right next to the window. My head could even sit on the windowsill if I felt so inclined. I really like being close to the window. The breeze is delightful and the sunshine (during the day) is splendid.

However, the sunshine also causes problems when I'm trying to sleep. So for the past couple of months, I've been sleeping with the blanket, Elder Reynolds gave me before I left for college, wrapped around my head.

It is kind of bizarre doing so, but it works. Yesterday I bought a sleeping mask and tried to use it last night. It stayed on for a couple of hours but I woke up with my blanket on my head again.

Suggestions?

Josephine and I get along quite well

2011-06-11T23:41:00.000-06:00

I decided to name my sewing machine Josephine. It makes it easy to yell at her when something goes wrong.

Tonight I sewed this together. I think I did a pretty good job for that little knowledge I have (if you ignore the bottom row. I'm going to resew better tomorrow.)

Thanks to my parents who let me go buy new fabric and supplies. I'm excited to play with that!

the journey

2011-06-10T19:35:00.000-06:00

The Journey

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice --
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do --
determined to save
the only life you could save.

--Mary Oliver

I'm pretty much loving Mary Oliver today.

wild geese

2011-06-10T19:27:00.001-06:00

Wild Geese
by Mary Oliver

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting--
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

Thank you Mormon Child Bride for posting this poem first (:

400

2011-06-10T17:46:00.001-06:00

This is my four-hundredth blog post.

I like that.

I also like sewing with Jana. Even though I can't do math and make a quilt that was extremely disproportionate.

She made french toast for breakfast. I like that too.

I just like Jana.

dia

2011-06-08T13:45:00.001-06:00

I love Meg and Dia. And I'm loving Dia on The Voice

changed.

2011-06-07T22:28:00.000-06:00

Today someone told me that they like the clothes that I wear. And not just anyone but someone who I think looks amazing all the time.

I've never had anyone say that before. A year ago, it wouldn't have happened. It's crazy to think how much I've grown in this past year and how much I've changed. I'm still the same Alexis, but I think I'm more confident and assertive than I've ever been before.

I've worked really hard to grow into myself. But I don't take all the credit. In the past year, I've had such wonderful friend that taught me that it's okay to be my crazy wild self.

I miss them.

a post with subposts

2011-06-03T23:27:00.004-06:00

Last Day with my Kiddos
Today was the last day of school. It's a very bittersweet ending. I'm ready for the school year to be over, ready for the break, but my heart breaks at the thought that I might never see my students that I've grown to love. They would make my days better, everyday. My job as an aide solidified what I want to be when I grow up. I've loved this job, even the hard days.

Mission Papers Day 1
I was supposed to start my mission papers Sunday, but I extended my stay in Neola to be with my family just a little bit longer. Then I was going to start Wednesday, but the Bishop said let's go for Thursday. Thursday, the Bishop went on a date with his wife (I very acceptable excuse). So, we started them today. I called at 1. The system was having problems, so I waited until he returned my call around 2:30.

I'm so excited to start them! I can't wait to turn them in---BYU friends or Utah friends, I'm hoping to have them in near the end of August. I wanted wait until you'd all be back for fall, in case you wanted to be there when I open the big white envelope.

A Haircut Elder Kirkham Would Appreciate

Please disregard my lack of make-up and dirty mirror.

Matthew always insisted I looked best with straight across bangs, however I beg to disagree. When I allowed him to cut my hair, he'd always give me straight across bangs. Arianne did my hair today. And no, I didn't get straight across bangs but something really close. I know that if he were here he would come up to me and tossel my bangs to make them go straight across and then I'd swipe them to the side as soon as he'd walk away. He was always doing my hair. He would straighten it all the time, especially if I left it to go into its natural wave. He even did my hair for one of the On Campus Housing dances. I know that sounds strange if you don't know Matthew, but that's just Matthew and that's the kind of relationship we had. He picked out my clothes, went shopping with me, and did my hair among many other things.

Oh, how I miss that boy.